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18, 2023 & 24, both really big years for me

I oficially finished school! And after that came the job hunt (can’t afford higher education), and to this day I haven’t really found anything, sadly.

2023 was also the year I oficially came out to everyone I know as trans, and started living comfortably as my real gender. Surprisingly, I had no issues in either side of the family (I was expecting a lot of drama).

2024 was probably my best year of like, my entire life. I finally got to reconnect with and old friend sorta ex from early highschool. We were really close once, but both of us where going through mayor fucked up events on our life, and paired with our immaturity, we didn’t really know how to keep the relationship going.
Now years later we got talking again, and it’s like we never stopped! Now I’m happy to call them my partner again, and our relationship is about to turn 1 year old :)

Honestly, I’d like to see my life on the big screen. Every story I write, and characters I make, have elements of what I have experienced on my life, so a realistic depiction of my life could be interesting.

To boil down the plot: Kid growing up in awful conditions (and I mean awful), with shitty but compelling parents. Does a lot terrible stuff when growing up and eventually meets an equally (maybe slightly more) broken person. Together they learn to love the other and themselves.

The movie wouldn’t be afraid to depict those terrible moments, so you could truly get to see how awful that person was, and decide for yourself whether they deserve the good things happening in their life, or deserve the punishment they never got. I think that’d be my goal. To show myself as transparently as possible, without pushing my representation either way, to see how people would react to me leaving my past behind and finding happiness.

The movie would also heavily touch in the subjects of: SA and CSA, religion trauma, neurodivergence, mental ilnesses and late diagnosis, the true impact of divorced parents, a shaky gender journey, terrible and extremely cringeworthy teen romance, paired with the most complex strangers-to-friends-to-lovers-to-friends-to-enemies-to-strangers-to-friends-to-lovers-to-it’s-complicated you’ve ever seen, and a whole lot of self loathing.

I’d also invest big on music. Music means so much to me and that has to be reflected on the movie.

I think the movie could become somewhat of a success thanks to the controversy it would spark. I estimate a 50% of people would side with the protagonist and praise the movie for showcasing such a raw journey of self improvement, and so many would see themselves reflected on the story and be touched at how despite how unworthy and unlovable you may feel, good things can happen to you.
The other 50% would find the movie outrageous. They would bash it for downplaying the terrible stuff done by the protagonist and how “they never got what they deserved”. They’d preach the movie is harmful for displaying a story with a happy ending for the scum of the earth, and how that is the entire focus of the story and appearently the moral of the story.

I’m slowly allowing myself to eat more after a long history of dealing with an ED :)

Rooting for ecosia with it plans to create their own index, but unhappy with the direction they’re gping specially with AI

Fandoms here are scarce so I’m gonna go and say I probably know more about Five Nights at Freddy’s than the average Lemmy user

Nice!! Did this about a month ago and I’ve felt better with myself ever since :)

My advice would be:

• Make a list of albums you really like, and start with those first. This is mostly to get in tune with what you actually like listening to, since storage can become a problem.
• I know you probably don’t have the instant money to spare, but try to buy the music from the artist you love the most. You can pirate in the meantime, and you should definetly avoid paying problematic artists, but I think buying your music should be a goal you’re aiming for; Remember, if you’re not streaming their music, you’re not gonna be supporting them in any way.
• Find a music player that matches your need. In my case I’m using Lollypop. An free open source player available on Linux that supports Scrobbling by default (had trouble installng plugins in other players lol). There are tons of music player for different needs, like multi-platform, support for multiple devices, lightweight, lots of customization, auto-playlists, etc.

50/50, maybe?

I like my ideal world where no one expects anything from anyone when it comes to clothes and appearance, but I also like to figure out my (very extra) outfit of the day from time to time